I had an interesting experience on Tuesday night. Tuesday is my racquetball night. The local fitness center has a racquetball league in the fall and winter, and I have participated for several years. It is enjoyable, and I get to see a lot of different play styles, along with a wide range of skill levels.
Now in racquetball, there are those who are professional players, and those who are more recreational players. I feel like I fall somewhere in the middle. I'm not really good enough to consider myself a pro, but I am reasonably good, and I enjoy playing regularly. I've toyed with the idea of playing more often and practicing more to boost my skill level, but I've never been serious enough about it (when it comes down to it, I really dislike doing drills, which are necessary to get really good. Also, I would also need to lose quite a bit of weight).
As I got home after league on Tuesday night, I hopped into the shower. It's amazing how many of my "Aha" moments come in the shower! Anyway, I realized that I accepted myself as a recreational racquetball player. That may seem like a simple statement. However, being a perfectionist, I rarely accept any portion of myself or my behavior. So just being able to accept a small portion of myself is a big thing. I further realized that I am okay where I am. I am content to be a recreational racquetball player, who goes and plays once a week or so.
It's nice to be able to accept a part of myself. I believe that I need to accept myself where I am before I can change.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
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